On Monday, May 29th, it will mark one month of marriage for Kevin and I! I've been so busy since that I haven't had the chance to write about it! Life is just now starting to return to its normal routine, and it's a little comforting. I'll be honest, returning from our honeymoon was a rough transition. I was bloated (#ifyoulikepinacoladas) and discouraged mentally and physically. I honestly missed wedding planning. Does that sound crazy? My wedding was truly the best day of my life. All of our families gathered in mine and Kevin's home city to eat, drink and celebrate. What could possibly be better than that? And seeing how our families/friends come from different areas, it's rare that it will happen again.
As beautiful as the day was, my wedding marked this incredible new beginning (as I'm sure it does for most people). All of my life I have waited to become serious with a man who brought out the best of me. In fact, Kevin is my first "real official relationship." Just six months before I met Kevin, I went through probably the roughest times of my life. I had a broken heart- from a boy and from not getting my "dream job." They coincidentally broke my heart on the same day. I had felt SO lost and for someone quite sure of their self, it was painfully uncomfortable. I ended up accepting a job offer here in San Diego. I remember right before meeting Kevin, I took part in a self-love 30 day challenge. I actually started to revel in the alone time I had. I would buy myself flowers, journal positive affirmations, and read self-help books in the early morning. The idea was to become the person I wanted to meet. It was as if God and the universe were preparing me for the next step in life. Before I knew it, along came Kevin... As I wrote that last sentence, magical sound effects went off in my head. He has transformed me from the inside, out. I won't go into too much mushy detail, but I have never felt more peace in my heart. I have never felt more beautiful. He is truly the answer to my prayers and what I have felt in my heart my entire life.
Though my life has become more beautiful since the day I met Kevin, it was my wedding day that I really felt the doors to a painful past shut. I've since recognized that those instances simply HAD to happen to get me to today's present moment. For those of you who may feel hopelessly single, my advice to you is to work on yourself. Those negative feelings are coming from an area that you need to tap deeper into. There is nothing wrong with being alone, but in order to attract "your person" you first need to become that person. I know to some that I could possibly be a tad bit annoying blogging about how love is so transforming. However, I don't care- this is my blog, after all (lol). I only wish those people knew what I felt inside.