I’ll never forget my former boss’s words, “Being a welcoming and friendly person isn’t natural for everyone and I think that’s the case for you.” That moment was my cue to escape comfort and chase after happiness. I had found myself in a position where people thought of me as this miserable and mean person. I’m fully aware that I shouldn’t care about what people think of me. However, in this case, I believe my unhappiness started to seep out of me without me even realizing it. Perhaps it was also a combination of my former boss only getting to know me on a superficial level. It didn’t matter though. I quickly realized no matter how hard I tried or excelled, her thoughts would not change of me. No matter my efforts, I would not excel in my role, I would remain in this stagnant place…so I quit and it was the best decision I made for my career and self-happiness.
Before I got to the point of having that conversation, so much sadness and depression had built up inside of me. I couldn’t be happy for my significant other. My morning commute consisted of a slew of tears. My life revolved around Fridays and Saturdays, and on Sunday, this cloud of doom would hover over me knowing that I returned for another dreadful Monday. It started to get so bad that I would feel bad for myself. My husband finally suggested I go to therapy because of my job and other things. I never let on to how sad I was, and I think my husband was the only one who truly knew. For a while, I hid it from my family and friends, because if not this job, what was I going to do? I applied to about 50 different jobs and no one responded. So, after months of trying to force things to work, I had to let go. I remember the day I decided to take the leap of faith. It’s so strange but I have this song that I will stop and pray for it to be played wherever I am. (Landslide- Fleetwood Mac) It’s almost like my little angel. That morning I went to a new yoga class and the song played. The teacher’s intention was also about letting go. I had never cried so much in a yoga class. I came home, woke up my husband in tears and said “I can’t do this anymore. I’m going to quit!” Not to get too personal, but finances were rearranged and SO many blessings came our way that the transition was almost seamless.
So what’s my point? I solemnly believe that when you chase after something that makes your heart sing, life will meet you there. Think about what it is you’re passionate about. What makes your face light up when you speak of it? What do you find yourself completely and effortlessly consumed by? This is the thing that you will thrive in. You will radiate happiness, thus attracting others to your “craft.” I know it’s SO easy to get wrapped in a job that pays the bills, and it’s not always easy to just walk away from that responsibility. I recognize how extremely blessed I am. But my suggestion to you is to make room for your happiness. Perhaps there are things you can do without – the $100 gym/studio membership, eating out, cable, etc. Instead of spending your extra time in front of the TV, sleeping or going out, explore the thing that makes you shine!
Before I quit my job, I was working 40+ hours, enrolled in a yoga certification program, and working on my Master’s. I was always tired but I worked hard, and it’s what allowed me to feel secure in my decision of leaving. Instead, I was ditching the mundane to seek joy. In a matter of 60 days, I found 3 studios willing to hire me and a stay at home job that allows me so much flexibility! So if you’re considering that pay cut or just fed up with your current situation, I’ll leave you with this amazing piece from Deepak Chopra’s, Seven Spiritual Laws of Success,
“We know we’ve become part of the cosmic plan when the universe upholds and supports us...Every law and power of nature comes to our aid and supports us spontaneously.”
CHASE YOUR DREAM. Be prepared, but I promise you, abundance will follow you and your newfound happiness. And remember, nothing ever got accomplished in your comfort zone.